I'm Not Dead

I am sorry about dropping off the face of the planet right after that last post but my health deteriorated so rapidly that I couldn't write or deal with the auction results and soon I was flown back to Canada to try my luck with my homeland's health care system. I am still in Canada and will be for quite awhile and while I have no news to report of my medical condition and I am far from being well I have been assured that I am not in any immediate danger.

Zak is here with me now after a couple months of being separated. The longest time we've been apart since we met over 5 years ago, Drax is staying with my parents in another city until we move into our new place here September 1st. We still have our place in LA and eventually I will have the results of the auction taken care of or will simply re-do the sale if the original bidders are no longer interested, As I am too sick to travel it may take quite a long time--I am sorry.

Also a quick note about my wishlist. Since I have no access at the moment to some of the gifts sent me and most of the return addresses there will also be a significant delay in getting thank you packages sent out--as I also have no access to the dvds and 8X10s and stuff I send out to people who have been generous. However I assure you all that I have not forgotten and all the records have been saved so I can catch up when I have everything sent to me here or I am able to get back to LA.

Thank you all for your continued support!

Mandy's Massive Bra Auction is Over.

All right--the bra auction is over!
Give me a few hours to post the winners and round up the appropriate info I need to send these off to you boys.

Sold were the Pollyanna, the Jessica, the pink Joli, and the Swamp Witch bras--to the highest bidders.

As for the others--I'll find something worthwhile to do with them.

Mandy's Massive Bra Auction

So I have some used items that no longer fit me, some barely worn but-worn in photos and sets. Some of the bras are much too used to be really useful to any female interested in a well fitting bra and so are being sold mainly as fetish items, for example I am selling a bra that is a 28FF or 28F I believe, that is so used up and stretched out --had it since I was 19 or 20 years old-- that only someone who really wants a piece of old well loved oddly sized Mandy Morbid lingerie will be interested in purchasing.

 Below are the photos and descriptions and sizes of the items I have photos of so far.
All are Freya bras with one exception and all require hand washing in cool water, and hang or lay flat to dry.

Auction will be held in the comments below and bidding will continue for a week. Final price does not include shipping but will include 3 candid pics of me spilling out of the too small bra you've won for your amusement.

Note: These are all old photos--more than a year or so with the exception of the yellow and black nameless one. They fit or mostly did at the time they were photographed but alas no longer.

Red Freya "Rio" bra sz 28F Good condition.

White Freya "Pollyanna Balcony Bra" sz 28G This is my proper size but it's slightly damaged from one accidental machine wash. Hardly worn.

Dark pink Freya "Jolie" sz 28F --as you can see much too small for me but very comfortable. Good condition but has been worn.

Black Freya "Jolie" sz 28F again very comfortable but wrong size for me. (I bought this again in a 28G) Decent condition, has been worn.

Black with blue flower print Freya "Pollyanna" sz 28FF Very well worn and loved.

Black and nude Freya "Lola Plunge Bra " sz 30F Obviously wishful thinking on my part when I bought this. Used mainly for photoshoots. Not worn as an "everyday" bra because it's the wrong size. Good condition.

Black, red, and cream/nude Freya "Jessica Plunge Bra" sz 28F Hardly worn, great condition.

Nude Freya "Active Sports Bra" sz 30DDD (was the closest I have ever come to finding a sports bra in my size--totally doesn't fit at all anymore--cannot squeeze into it.) Great condition. Hardly used.

Black Freya "Antoinette Bra" sz 28F sadly outgrown as all the 28F's are. Great condition.

 One of my all time absolute favorites. Had for ages. From an old Freya collection from years ago. I cannot find the name of this item even online. It's 28F or 28FF the tag is very worn. Not sure about parting with this one so it'll only go for a good offer. Yellow with black stripes, little yellow rosette and ribbon detail.

Nude with white raised embroidered floral pattern. Leopard print inside. Victoria Secret sz 34A--was a hand me down. Padded. Worn for my Swamp Witch set for Suicide Girls only.

Fake.

So really internet? Really?

That isn't me on Deviant Art. I have never had a DA account. Ever. And I don't intend to seeing as how the moderators can't even get off their fat asses to ban the fake who's stealing my shitty quality, trashy cam pics I take for my twitter fans--I'd be the last to claim they were "art". 

Kimberly Kane's, Ellen Stagg's, Bob Coulter's photos of me may be art. But not the ones this fake of mine is putting on Deviant Art in my name. 

Preview

So Darren and I shot some photos yesterday. Here's a few out-takes.

 That's my neighbour Angela on the floor--she let us use some of her furniture for the shoot.

And that's my interrupting dog Drax the Destroyer.

Madonna's "Human Nature": Deal With It.

Express yourself, don't repress yourself
Express yourself, don't repress yourself
Express yourself, don't repress yourself
Express yourself, don't repress yourself
And I'm not sorry
[I'm not sorry]
It's human nature
[it's human nature]
And I'm not sorry
[I'm not sorry]
I'm not your bitch don't hang your shit on me
[it's human nature]
You wouldn't let me say the words I longed to say
You didn't want to see life through my eyes
[Express yourself, don't repress yourself]
You tried to shove me back inside your narrow room
And silence me with bitterness and lies
[Express yourself, don't repress yourself]
Did I say something wrong?
Oops, I didn't know I couldn't talk about sex
[I musta been crazy]
Did I stay too long?
Oops, I didn't know I couldn't speak my mind
[What was I thinking]
And I'm not sorry
[I'm not sorry]
It's human nature
[it's human nature]
And I'm not sorry
[I'm not sorry]
I'm not your bitch don't hang your shit on me
[it's human nature]
You punished me for telling you my fantasies
I'm breakin' all the rules I didn't make
[Express yourself, don't repress yourself]
You took my words and made a trap for silly fools
You held me down and tried to make me break
[Express yourself, don't repress yourself]
Did I say something true?
Oops, I didn't know I couldn't talk about sex
[I musta been crazy]
Did I have a point of view?
Oops, I didn't know I couldn't talk about you
[What was I thinking]
And I'm not sorry
[I'm not sorry]
It's human nature
[it's human nature]
And I'm not sorry
[I'm not sorry]
I'm not your bitch don't hang your shit on me
[it's human nature]
Express yourself, don't repress yourself
Express yourself, don't repress yourself
Express yourself, don't repress yourself
Express yourself, don't repress yourself
Express yourself, don't repress yourself
Express yourself, don't repress yourself
Express yourself, don't repress yourself
Did I say something true?
Oops, I didn't know I couldn't talk about sex
[I musta been crazy]
Did I have a point of view?
Oops, I didn't know I couldn't talk about you
[What was I thinking]
And I'm not sorry
[I'm not sorry]
It's human nature
[it's human nature]
And I'm not sorry
[I'm not sorry]
I'm not your bitch don't hang your shit on me
[it's human nature]
And I'm not sorry
[I'm not sorry]
It's human nature
[it's human nature]
And I'm not sorry
[I'm not sorry]
I'm not your bitch don't hang your shit on me
[it's human nature]
[I'm not apologizing]
[Would it sound better if I were a man?]
[You're the one with the problem]
[Why don't you just deal with it]
And I'm not sorry
[I'm not sorry]
It's human nature
[it's human nature]
And I'm not sorry
[I'm not sorry]
I'm not your bitch don't hang your shit on me
[it's human nature]
[Would you like me better if I was?]
[We all feel the same way]
[I have no regrets]
[Just look in the mirror]
And I'm not sorry
[I'm not sorry]
It's human nature
[it's human nature]
And I'm not sorry
[I'm not sorry]
I'm not your bitch don't hang your shit on me
[it's human nature]
[I don't have to justify anything]
[I'm just like you]
[Why should I be?]
[Deal with it]

Hell Hath No Fury

 So this has been happening.

(Greg)173. Because the real question was, why would a woman be attracted to an image if it debases her. My point was that it is because she drinks the kool-aid. With a man, the image doesn't give him the message that he is only a sexual object because it is drowned by the images around it. There is no kool-aid to drink. No man looks at our culture and says "wow, we really only value men for their sexual physique". Unless he is retarded.

WHAT THE FUCK?


 Who do you think you are to decide what images are quote-unquote debasing to women? Only women themselves have the right to decide that and only on a individual, personal, subjective level based on personal taste which may have nothing to do with feminism and/or sexism. Images you'd like to judge as debasing others might find empowering and arousing or amusing or simply visually pleasant and all sorts of things I bet you can't even imagine, they may hate it for all sorts of reasons you aren't able to take into consideration either. You can't generalize what's appropriate/harmful or not for ALL women--YOU--GREG can't certainly because you are A) male and B) No one ever should. In any context. Because that would be pure sexism.

This however: "...because she drinks the kool-aid." is debasing.

It is debasing because it implies--explicitly--that any woman who doesn't find it debasing is too stupid or brainwashed to realize the impact of all the suggestions and blah blah blah the culture, society, the media, has had on her, so she doesn't reject it but instead internalizes it. But many, many very smart women see those images and enjoy them or ignore them or have any mix of reactions to them and SIMULTANEOUSLY reject all the crap our culture tells them about their worth and value as human begins and as sexual beings and come to their own healthy-happy conclusions based on their own experiences, personality, biology, observations etc etc. Not the conclusions of anyone else, and certainly not the conclusions of what some dude on the internet thinks is the academic-acceptable-non-harmful-mainstream conclusion.

Also how dumb do you think females are Greg? I don't know many who see a picture and think the message they are getting is "Oh that's telling me--more than anything else I should notice in this picture--I'm only worthy as an object of sexual desire". Give us some fucking credit--it's 2011--time for a bit of an outlook update perhaps?

Bottom line is everyone and obviously men included must learn that women themselves--every single one of us--has to come to her own conclusions about what she finds harmful to her psychology and her self-image regardless of what images or media or cultural pressure she is presented with or stumbles across during her life--she can resent that stuff, or ignore it, or try to teach other people to disregard it and evolve beyond it but in the end she'll have to face the fact that she has a body--a body that has historically been controversial and more often than not put her in a position of disadvantage--it is a body that IS different and not the same as men's or as other women's--simple fact of life. Women and men both need to get over this stupid fear of woman's physicality and sexuality and it's manufactured Victorian dangers to individual and society's "long term" health, happiness and stability. It's a fallacy more damaging than some sexy pictures somewhere ever could be.

Ugh I don't don't even know if this rant makes sense anymore. Ah! a body that looks fake! Run! Hide your daughters eyes! Shame your sons for looking! It's unnatural! (Only it isn't.)