That's a preview of my latest set for Suicide Girls. To view (and vote for) the full set check out my profile as "Adria" on SuicideGirls.com. Shot by the very talented Sawa, who was the lead singer of Watch Me Burn--some of you may remember them from my old website's vids as they most often provided back round music.
- I just shot a set with my friend Sarah. (She's Sawa on Suicide Girls.)
Oh yeah? What was it like?
-It was all creamy and sun dappled and autumnal. I had nice shoes on.
Autumnal with tits or autumnal without tits?
-With tits of course!
What do you think do you this economy?
-It sucks. That's what I think.
According to economists we are technically no longer in a recession.
-Oh really? Tell that to the strippers.
I will gladly tell that to the strippers--bring them over here and I will tell them.
-They will rejoice....eventually....whenever it is they can tell we're no longer in a recession. I doubt it will be soon.
What else is going on Mandy?
-I'm flying to NYC the day after tomorrow. For an art show opening and some photoshoots and hopefully D&D with the "Yale friends".
Do they all talk about nuclear physics and rocket science?
-No they talk/argue about art a lot. And laugh at seemingly mundane things which are actually crazy insane things but most people don't notice or care.
What's an argument about art that they've had?
-It's usually someone says they like some artist's work and then someone else says that's weird and stupid and "why".
Are they witty and urbane like Stewie and Brian on Family Guy?
-Yes--they are like that.
So you wanna hang out with a talking dog and a baby with a football for a head?
If you had to go out with Brian or Stewie which one would you go out with?
-Ew....Brain 'cause he's not gay and I like guys who will fuck me.
So you would have sex with a dog rather than a person?
No. Brian isn't a real dog he's a cartoon. The other choice is a baby who's gay. Really?
I think Stewie is bi, or what they call in psychology polymorphous perverse.
-Bi? Oh well then Stewie obviously. 'Cause he's not an alcoholic dog and I prefer sober creatures most of the time.
What about Peter?
What if it was the law, like Barack Obama said "Mandy must have sex with Peter Griffin. This will benefit all Americans, not merely the wealthiest among us"?
-Seeing as how I'm not American I don't give a fuck about what Obama thinks will benefit all Americans...if he's talking about having sex with an obese, lewd, immature, idiotic cartoon man.
What if he said that if you don't the terrorist win?
-I don't think anyone even knows what that would mean---not even the terrorists. Besides, those terrorists don't hate Canadians as much.
Well of course not they don't have as many freedoms and terrorists hate freedoms.
-I think Canadians have more freedom in many ways due to societal infrastructure and stuff, but hey if they think we have less hateful freedoms then maybe we'll get along better.
Yeah you should probably keep pretending that you have less freedoms.
-Yup. Hey did you know everyone I know got pets this year? EVERYONE. And two of my friends got engaged as well. Weird, everyone is growing up or something.
Pets hate our freedoms.
They're all like "Oh you can't go out 'cause you have to take care of me tonight." "Oh you gotta go to work so you can afford to buy me food." "Hey stop doing that and take me to have my worms removed.""Hey stop having sex 'cause I'm watching and I'm a dog and it's weird."
-I don't really care if my dog is around when I'm having sex. He's just a dog he doesn't care.
He hates your freedoms that's the important part. Plus what if your dog was Brian from Family Guy?
-Do you think Brian hates your freedoms?
Maybe, he's racist.
-Oh yeah I forgot about that---now I really don't want to fuck him.
Ok people who read my blog--I want to know if any of you have read the article about feminism in the latest issue of Harper's. (Well I think it's latest issues--it's in the other room--'cause it's the last one mailed to me.) If so, what did you think? I was slightly offended by it--but I'm not going to write much about that now.
Have you ever read anything else Susan Faludi?
-I don't know. I should pay more attention to who's writing what I read I suppose.
I liked her book Backlash. She provided a lot of evidence to back up what she was saying with things like, about how TV networks pulled shows that were doing well off the air just because the female characters made the execs uncomfortable. There were detailed interviews of facts and shit. What was the thing you read about?
-I actually really liked most of the content of the article which is about the division in feminist theories between 2ond wave and 3rd wave and "new" wave feminism and about materialism and capitalism and there's some brief history of feminism in there as well. What I didn't like was how at the end she seemed emotional and condescending. It got a bit too personal.
Well you know how women are.
-Yeah unfortunately I do.
So what did she say exactly that bothered you?
-She seems to think that young feminists and their ideas and means of expressing themselves are "infantile" and "weightless" and "ahistorical"and essentially frivolous and useless. Which I think is kind of silly and dismissive and condescending.
So basically she's accusing younger feminists of being exactly what sexist men think women are like?
-Hmm. I don't know if I'd put it that way.
Well that is what they'd say. She sounds like she's just being like "Hey kids get off my lawn."
-That's what the article is about though, this schism in feminism.
And she joins in.
-Yes and the end of the article she does.
So she's describing a problem of which she is a part?
-Yes. That's what I meant when I said it got too personal. She made her own feelings on the subject obvious.
You should invite her over so you could talk about it.
-I doubt she'd want to talk to me.
-I'm not an academic for one thing, I'm not educated (well traditionally), I'm not a writer, I'm not involved in any feminist organizations, and I'm a nude model, stripper (sometimes) and I've done some porn. I'm 26. I'm the last kind of female she'd want to discuss this with.
Becoming increasingly sensitive and irritated by everything. The weather, Hollywood noise and stench, my own body, other people's bodies and the mindless prattle they endlessly spew. Cannot wait to get away for awhile. Cannot wait to feel a real season again. Want to spend some time around quiet, reserved, polite people. Want some winter to burn up this energy and chill my senses. Homesick just a bit, eh?
Either that or I'm desperately in need of some really wild sex. Preferably with multiple attractive partners. In the snow. No virgins allowed. Condoms a must.
It's probably a mix of homesickness and lack of crazy orgies.
Suppose I could find a way to fix this, what do you all think?
I got a dog three weeks ago. His name is Drax the Destroyer. He's 9 or 10 years old. Can't tell what breed. I shot with Ellen Stagg a week or two ago and she snapped this pic of us. The pics I saw looked fantastic and I'm excited to see the results. I hadn't modeled in quite awhile!
Zak and I are getting ready to head to NYC for his show, which opens Oct 7th at Fredericks and Freiser Gallery. I am very eager to get out of LA for awhile.
Last weekend Keith Baker (creator of Eberron) came and ran an adventure for us (Satine, Connie, Zak, me and our friend Darren--who's a camera man for IHIWMA) which was lots of fun.
I'm reading Sartre essays on art and music, finished reading Plagues and Peoples--loved it, watching All Creatures Great & Small (oh, childhood), saw a documentary about Harlan County, Lust Caution, Mongol, Warlords, Being John Malkovich, and some other stuff. Mongol was excellent, Lust Caution was disappointing.
Not much else is new. Same old. Struggling with illness and itching to travel.
"This must be our task
In Heav'n, this our delight; how wearisome
Eternity so spent in worship paid
To whom we hate. Let us not then pursue
By force impossible, by leave obtain'd
Unacceptable, though in Heav'n, our state
Of splendid vassalage, but rather seek
Our own good from ourselves, and from our own
Live to ourselves, though in this vast recess,
Free, and to none accountable, preferring
Hard liberty before the easy yoke
Or servile Pomp. Our greatness will appear
Then most conspicuous when great things of small,
Useful of hurtful, prosperous of adverse,
We can create, and in what place soe'er
Thrive under evil, and work ease out of pain
Through labour and endurance. This deep world
Of darkness do we dread? How oft amidst
Thick clouds and dark doth Heaven's all-ruling Sire
Choose to reside, his glory unobscured,
And with the majesty of darkness round
Covers his throne, from whence deep thunders roar.
Mustering their rage, and Heaven resembles Hell!"
First, I'd like to note that the show is doing really well and so for those of you who watch it, thanks. The rest of this is for everybody whether or not you watch it:
Even though it has little to do with the bottom line, once in awhile the pyrotechnic display of bigotry, sexism, self-righteousness and can't-be-bothered-to-google-ignorance that I periodically get in my inbox in response to this TV show that the Escapist pays us to make about our game kind of makes me despair for humankind. I don't mean that as an exaggeration I mean it literally. No matter how many nice letters and traffic bonus checks you get, there's only so many times you can read "Wyverns can't talk, you and your stupid tattood whores don't know shit about D&D stop posing" before you honestly start thinking: "What's the point? What's the point of ever trying to talk to anyone you don't already know? People seem to go out of their way to misunderstand and score snark points off everything you say. Why not just hang out here in my apartment in Hollywood with my stripper friends, making paintings and doing cool Hollywood things and play our game and forget about all these stupid nerds and their stupid nerd hobby?"
This line of thinking, however, only goes so far before I remember you guys and I remember the fact that pretty much everybody who reads and writes to D&D With Porn Stars only says things that seem sane and smart and recognizably human and there's almost no obscure topic I can talk about--game-related or otherwise--that somebody out there doesn't seem to know something interesting about and I just want you all to know that I appreciate that. When I start thinking that there's just no way to make yourself understood about anything even slightly out of the ordinary unless you're standing right in front of people I remember how many people have--for whatever reason--ended up on this site and started reading and then thought "Hey, this porn actor actually sounds like he knows what he's talking about" and although I regret that I live in a world where you actually have to thank people and be surprised when people don't act like assholes I just want you all to know that I know and appreciate the fact that y'all are smart and don't act like assholes.
And I appreciate how rare and nice that is and the girls do too and if it weren't true I wouldn't keep doing this.