Mandy Morbid: January 2011

I come home in the morning light
My mother says when you gonna live your life right
Oh mother dear we're not the fortunate ones
And girls they want to have fun
Oh girls just want to have fun

The phone rings in the middle of the night
My father yells what you gonna do with your life
Oh daddy dear you know you're still number one
But girls they want to have fun
Oh girls just want to have--

That's all they really want
Some fun
When the working day is done
Girls-- they want to have fun
Oh girls just want to have fun

Some boys take a beautiful girl
And hide her away from the rest of the world
I want to be the one to walk in the sun
Oh girls they want to have fun
Oh girls just want to have

That's all they really want
Some fun
When the working day is done
Girls--they want to have fun
Oh girls just want to have fun,
They want to have fun,
They want to have fun...

-Cyndi Lauper "Girls Just Wanna Have Fun"

(Fallon, Gaster, Maines, Sult)
My father was Black, my mother was Decker
Believe me my friend, it doesn't get any better
Than rack and pinion reasoning, add a little seasoning
Cook at ninety eight point six degrees
Let me be the bull, and you be the pen
Such an easy way to glorify sin
If I am a horse, you're a Venus in spurs
Everything I have is yours, so take it
I come fully loaded with an option to buy

I've got a stick shift disposition and a four wheel mind
I'll give you endless mileage and unlimited speed
Total satisfaction absolutely guaranteed
Turbo boost libido and passive restraints
And as of yet I haven't heard even a single complaint
I've got the tools of the trade and a fuel injected heart
Efficiency is beautiful, efficiency is art

-Clutch "Passive Restraints"

Last night a little dancer came dancin' to my door
Last night a little angel Came pumpin cross my floor
She said "Come on baby I got a licence for love
And if it expires pray help from above"

In the midnight hour she cried- "more, more, more"
With a rebel yell she cried- "more, more, more"
In the midniight hour babe- "more, more, more"
With a rebel yell- "more, more, more"
More, more, more.

She don't like slavery, she won't sit and beg
But when I'm tired and lonely she sees me to bed
What set you free and brought you to be me babe
What set you free I need you hear by me
Because

In the midnight hour she cried- "more, more, more"
With a rebel yell she cried- "more, more, more"
In the midniight hour babe- "more, more, more"
With a rebel yell- "more, more, more"

He lives in his own heaven
Collects it to go from the seven eleven
Well he's out all night to collect a fare
Just so long, just so long it don't mess up his hair.

I walked the ward with you, babe
A thousand miles with you
I dried your tears of pain, babe
A million times for you

I'd sell my soul for you babe
For money to burn with you
I'd give you all, and have none, babe
Just, just, justa, justa to have you here by me
Because

In the midnight hour she cried- "more, more, more"
With a rebel yell she cried- "more, more, more"
In the midniight hour babe- "more, more, more"
With a rebel yell she cried "more, more, more"
More, more, more.

Oh yeah little baby
she want more
More, more, more, more, more.

Oh yeah little baby
she want more
More, more, more, more.

-Billy Idol "Rebel Yell"

She gave you everything she had
But she was young and dumb
She'd just turned 21
She didn't care to hang around
So when the shit came down why she was nowhere to be found
This life can turn a good girl bad
She was the sweetest thing that you had ever seen

You're so such a delicate boy
In the hysterical realm
Of an emotional landslide
In physical terms

With your cherry lips and golden curls
You could make grown men gasp when you go walking past
And in your hot pants and high heels
They could not believe that such a body was for real
It seemed like rainbows would appear
Whenever you came near the clouds would disappear
Because you looked just like a girl
Your baby blues would flash and suddenly a spell was cast

You're so such a delicate boy
In the hysterical realm
Of an emotional landslide
In physical terms

You hold a candle in your heart
You shine the light on hidden parts
You make the whole world wanna dance
You bought yourself a second chance

Go baby go go
We're right behind you
Go baby go go
Yeah, we're looking at you
Go baby go go
Oh ,we're right behind you
Go baby go baby
Yeah, we're right behind you
Go baby go baby
Oh, we're right behind you
Go baby go baby
Yeah, we're looking at you
Go baby go baby
Oh, we're right behind you
Go baby go baby
Yeah, we're looking at you

You hold a candle in your heart
Go baby go go
You shine the light on hidden parts
Go baby go go
You make the whole world wanna dance
Go baby go go
You bought yourself a second chance
Go baby go baby go
Delicate boy
Go baby go baby go
In the hysterical realm
Go baby go baby go
Of an emotional landslide
Go baby go baby go
In physical terms
Go baby go go
Go

Yeah, we're looking at you
Go baby go go
Oh, we're right behind you

-Garbage "Cherry Lips (Go Baby Go)"

Nightclubbing we're nightclubbing
We're what's happening
Nightclubbing we're nightclubbing
We're an ice machine
We see people brand new people
They're something to see
When we're nightclubbing
Bright-white clubbing
Oh isn't it wild
Nightclubbing we're nightclubbing
We're walking through town
Nightclubbing we're nightclubbing
We walk like a ghost
We learn dances brand new dances
Like the nuclear bomb
When we're nightclubbing
Bright white clubbing
Oh isn't it wild...

-Iggy Pop "Night Clubbing"

Shooting a multi for Suicide Girls tonight with the fantastic Sawa and Ginary. So I'm getting myself all prettied up. Maybe sneak peaks to come.

So, Mandy, what’s your deal? Can you give us your basic info: stats, age, etc, for the n00bs in our readership?

-I'm 25 years old, born and half raised in Montreal, half in Ottawa, five feet tall, I have one blue eye and one green eye, my waist is about 24 inches, hips 32, bra size is 28 FF or 28 G/H depending on what time of the month it is, style, and amount of cleavage desired. My tits are real, I grew 'em myself. I weigh approximately 96 lbs and my shoe size is a women's 4 (kid's size 2). I usually have pink or blond hair but also sometimes a light green/aqua colour I really like, and I have a couple facial piercings and a bunch of tattoos all over. And yes, those are TIE fighters on my right thigh.

How’d you get into this biz and why did you decide to go the alt porn, rather than mainstream, route? Are you just not down with the aesthetics of mainstream, super-plastic porn, or is it more than that?

-I started modeling for Suicide Girls in 2006 and then I met some people involved in the "alt porn scene" and since I had wanted to do porn all along it eventually just worked out. I generally don't enjoy "alt porn" or "mainstream porn". I pretty much only like very well animated Japanese tentacle rape porn. I get asked to be in movies that are considered "alt" because I have tattoos and a shaved head and I don't tan (and the people making "alt" porn are the people I know-- so far). I'm interested in having sex mostly and don't care too much about the labels. I do however prefer to be involved in porn where I trust the director and other performers and admire their ability to create something genuinely erotic, like Kimberly Kane's movies.

Speaking of aesthetics, you have a look all your own paired with a sweet ass and a gigundo set of jaw-dropping, all-natural boobies. You’ve been blessed, but what do you say to chicks with littler boobs who want augmentation for the industry? Did you just get lucky, or are you anti-plastic?
-I like boobs. Small or large. Natural or not. I don't like bad boob jobs of course--they make me sad, but when it's done right augmentations can be wonderful. I have girlfriends with really great boob jobs and girlfriends with itty bitty titties and I truly enjoy both. Small boobs always seem extra feminine, youthful, and fashionable to me probably because I've always had my oversized womanly ones. I did get lucky with them though and I do love them!

-As for getting implants solely for work in the industry--I think that's a matter of personal values. The women I know with augmentations are very happy and don't regret the modification at all. The girls with smaller natural breasts seem pleased with them and say they would never change them. A choice is a choice regardless of what the motivation is and when it comes to other people's bodies it's a choice that's none of my business.

Speaking of plastic, you’ve earned yourself a reputation as the live-action hentai tentacle rape scene girl, so we guess you can’t be too anti-plastic. Or were those tentacles rubber?

-The tentacles were constructed out of armature wire, rolls of black cloth, dildos on the ends of some, and lots and lots of black condoms. The body/head of the monster was made of out bits of Halloween masks, mainly a big skull. And lots of spit and lube. I am currently planning the next one, must improve on the first try.

I would venture to say that tentacle porn is bordering on performance art. What’s your take on the intersection of pornography and art? Are they the same thing? Can they be? Will they ever be?
-There are a lot of similarities between the adult industry and the fine art industry, a lot of capitalistic, exploitative, sucking similarities. Of course sometimes they end up being the same thing but that's all relative and subjective. I know pornographers who I believe are genuinely artists and their work is both erotic/pornographic and artistic. Bob Coulter's photographs and Kimberly Kane's films are examples of that.

So we’ve gotta ask… What do you think of the upcoming Hustler porn parody of Avatar? Blue people fucking seems kind of up your tentacle and hentai alley. Are you excited?
-Not excited at all, I don't watch porn that isn't anime--monster--raping--schoolgirl or that I'm not in (because I like seeing myself fuck). Never saw Avatar. Looked really stupid to me in the previews. I'm all for strangely coloured people though. I'm a huge Star Trek fan and my friends were in both the Star Trek parodies and I didn't even watch those. I'm not into watching real people fuck. Why would I when I could be doing the fucking myself?

You have asthma so serious you need to use a nebulizer and sometimes a gas mask in places where people smoke. And you’ve also got rheumatoid arthritis, which cuts down seriously on energy. And a bunch of other conditions I don’t even know about. Yet your line of work would seem to be one that takes a heavy toll on the body. What do you do to keep yourself healthy and energized?

-I do have a lot of chronic (and some serious) medical conditions, Zak Smith/ Sabbath (my boyfriend) has a list of them tattooed on his forearm.

(And it's a respirator with hepa filters, not a gas mask even though it really does looks like a gas mask.)

I try to eat healthy and take my medications properly and regularly. I see my doctors often to keep on top of everything. I try to go to the gym or exercise a few times a week if I'm not too sick. Lots and lots of vitamins, lots of rest and sleep, I very rarely drink alcohol or coffee and I've never been able to indulge in recreational drug use, I'm even allergic to weed...that sort of thing. What you would expect I imagine.

But lately I really haven't been feeling healthy or energized (just had a nasty asthma attack--again) and it's very difficult because I'd really like to work and perform much more often than I am able to. I simply just don't have the physical constitution and stamina to be anything more than a very part-time performer. My body is extremely unreliable and it's frustrating.

We hear you had surgery last year. Care to share any details?

-I have no problem sharing details, but they can be technical and kind of icky...anyway I did have surgery last year for a disease called Endometriosis.

Endometriosis is gross to explain but it basically causes cysts, lesions, scarring and internal bleeding most often around the outside of the uterus and ovaries and the surrounding organs. The scarring can fuse organs together into positions and/or places they shouldn't be in which obviously would impair those organ's ability to function properly. It is extremely painful, especially during sex, ovulation, menstruation, exercise, etc, etc. It has also been linked to infertility.

I had had symptoms of the condition and been diagnosed with chronic ovarian cysts--which would grow for months until they were huge and then burst forcing me to rush to the emergency room--since I was in high school but the condition had worsened so much since then that it was ruining my life--I couldn't function, so I went in for laparoscopic surgery.

Laparoscopic surgery is considered minor surgery--they go in with a small tube with a camera on it to look around and find the disease and when they find it--they laser it away. I had a "significant" amount of disease they zapped and I was shown some interesting pictures of my "before and after" cauterized insides. I went home the same day but it took a few months to really feel healed.

Following the surgery I also went through a six month artificially induced menopause--they gave me a medication that shut down my reproductive system completely-- because it's the hormones that cause the disease to grow. For some people the treatments reduce your sex drive, but not in my case.

The disease is under much better control and my quality of life has improved considerably. That surgery basically changed my life.

We hope you’re feeling better! We need more movies from Mandy, like Mandy Candy, which I’m actually trying to get my hands on for reviewing purposes… Could you help me out with that? *wink wink*

- I'll see what I can do--I only have a couple copies myself. And thank you, I am feeling better despite my recent asthma troubles!

Speaking of your vids, GoodVibes named February “National G-Spot Month.” I say fuck yeah! But there are a lot of haters out there in the scientific community that are still arguing about whether the G-Spot even exists. What do you make of this whole controversy?

- When I'm finished with medical school I'll get back to you on that one...Um. Ok. I suspect like the size of boobs and the shape and size of labia and stuff the tissue identified as the G-spot varies wildly in size and mass and so that may be why there's so much controversy about the objective evidence of it's actual existence. I know MY vagina and uterus are tilted at an odd angle (because my gynecologists are always confused when they first examine me, and then they say "hey, your vagina and uterus are tilted up funny, I had a hard time finding your cervix.") and so if I have a G-spot I think it's especially difficult to get at. There are some positions associated with G-spot pleasure that just don't work for me 'cause of the way my insides tilt. So I can't say for sure that I can feel mine, and many women probably have something similar going on. There are all sorts of strange things about the body no one understands and even doctors and scientists can't explain yet--they are actually pretty limited in their knowledge about the human body still I think. This is just another one of those things. I'm not especially concerned with the G-spot since whatever it is I'm doing when I'm fucking it feels good, and that's all that matters.

I feel like scientists saying there’s no G-Spot is like the Disneyfication of the female body—trying to clean them up and make them less sexual. But then again, I love Disney movies and I hear you do, too. I’ve always had a thing for the villainesses, myself. Have you heard about Tim Burton’s plan to make a “Wicked” style movie from the point of view of Maleficent, the villainess from Sleeping Beauty? What do you think? Good idea or bad idea?

I hadn't heard about that yet, but if it's true I'm all for it! I do love fairy tales, especially the archaic, pagan, creepy parts of them and I think modern fairy tales have been too cleaned up from their--what now seems--bizarre origins. "Wicked" is one of my favorite books, but I refuse to see the musical version, it's seems a travesty. I'm also looking forward to the new Alice in Wonderland movie and I adored Amercian Mcgee's Alice video game. So yeah, good idea.

I read on your blog that you hate Vegas, which would make sense given your anarchist/socialist (Canadian-born!) leanings. Vegas is a place where capitalism runs rampant and squishes the souls of mortals. How does someone like you, with ideology that runs so counter to capitalism, make of the porn industry, where cash is king?

- I think lots of sex is a really good thing. Just like I think good art (the art I like) is a good thing and should exist. Unfortunately there is a terrible soul sucking economic system set up around both these things and to be involved in either industry you have to tolerate and navigate through it. My website is free and so at least with that I could avoid some of the whoring and show that sex and porn can just be done for fun and enjoyment and not solely for profit. Even "Mandy Candy" was done on a very small budget and the whole point was to make something "good" and have fun creating it--not just to get a paycheck. But it is work, and as a performer you are a commodity and you want some compensation and acknowledgment. To eat and pay my rent I need to get paid so I can't simply remove myself from the system and survive. It's not ideal, but you just have to live with it and do your best to do what you want your way in spite of it.

I guess part of your response to capitalism is in your website, which has free content. Free smut for the masses is quite humanitarian of you, and we here at WHACK! appreciate it. But, I have to ask, how do you make a living? Especially with your medical costs, it can’t be easy.
-It’s hard to support yourself in porn unless you’re willing to take almost every job that comes along, and I don’t. But I strip, I model, I do ok. Zak and I try to live modestly and spend most of our money on my medical stuff and travel when we can. We don't have a car or insurance or buy fancy clothes or furniture or drugs or whatever it is people spend money on. Being thrifty and punk about it I guess. I'm quite content in my one room apartment with my old video games.

You’ve said in interviews that you think women who are outside the sex industry and who like porn should speak up—do you think their way of speaking up is through watching websites like yours? Do you see the market for alt and queer and female-driven porn expanding? Is the economy hurting your part of the industry?
The economy is hurting everything everywhere as far as I can tell, listening to NPR news and seeing for myself how the porn world is struggling. The internet is really changing the porn industry too. I don't know about the market expanding--but I do think porn has become much more mainstream in general and young people, male and female alike, have different ideas about what's acceptable and normal--websites like Suicide Girls and such seem to have contributed to more "open" attitudes about sexuality and feminism--I don't know about my site. I hope it's doing something similar, although I'm sure my audience is a bit different because my site isn't "softcore" and is less interactive (which I would like to change). My audience is probably much smaller too, and less likely to speak up or respond openly because it's still PORN and the stigmas and barriers haven't completely evaporated yet. (And some of those barriers shouldn't go away, really.)
Do you identify more as straight, gay, or bi?

-I'm definitely bisexual but I also definitely like the cock a whole lot. I'm more on the straight side of the spectrum, without a doubt. But a hot girl nevertheless will turn me on and make me want to suck on her tits (among other things). I do think it's really a lot of fun to make a girl cum. But to be fully satisfied I need a real, living, warm, cock to fuck me.

Ok, lastly: any projects or websites or movies or projects you want to tell our cultured degenerate readership about? What's next for Mandy Morbid?

-We are working on a web-show called "I Hit It With My Axe" for the Escapist.com about us: me, Zak Sabbath, Kimberly Kane, Satine Pheonix, a stripper named Connie, a hair stylist named Frankie, and guest stars--we had Justine Joli (who wants to be a regular) and Sasha Grey (who wants to be a dungeon master) join us already, playing Dungeons and Dragons. We had all been playing for a few months in real life regularly and we all love it, and we're sort of breaking "girl gamer" and "porn star" stereotypes (or possibly reinforcing some) which is kind of an interesting concept, and the Escapist thought so too. Girls who get naked and do sex stuff publicly plus Dungeons and Dragons is gotta be like the Internet sweet spot! It's gonna be pretty entertaining I think.

I'm also completely changing my website. But into what is still being worked out.

And as always I'm modeling for Stagg Street.com (recently shot with Justine Joli and Charlotte Stokely), Crazybabe.com and of course my beloved Suicidegirls.com (where you can find me as "Adria").